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Breaking Points | feministkilljoys

kimberlyalidio:

Giving up is so complicated; you don’t know whether you give up because something is lost; or whether you are giving up in case something is lost; or that giving up makes something lost. You worry, perhaps, that this “because” has got in the way; you worry about giving up because of this because. That’s a bit cryptic: you worry you will lose something because you thought you had lost something.

So at one level we do not encounter that which is “off course,” that which is off the line we have taken. And yet, accidental or chance encounters do happen, which re-direct us, and open up new worlds. Sometimes, such encounters might come as the gift of a lifeline, and sometimes they might not; they can be lived purely as loss. Such side-ways moments might generate new possibilities, or they might not. After all, it is often loss that generates a new direction; when we lose a loved one, for instance, or when a relationship with a loved one ends, it is hard to simply stay on course, as love is also what gives us a certain direction. What happens when we are “knocked off course” depends on the psychic and social resources behind us. 

It is certainly desire that helps generate a lesbian landscape, as a ground that is shaped by the paths that we follow. And yet, becoming a lesbian still remains a difficult line to follow. The lesbian body does not extend the shape of this world, as a world organized around the form of the heterosexual couple. Inhabiting a body that is not extended by the skin of the social, means the world acquires a new shape and makes new impressions. Becoming a lesbian taught me, I guess, about the very point of how life gets directed, and how that point is often hidden from view.

doskapozora:

therumpus:

The Rumblr’s in-house astrologer, Madame Clairevoyant, presents her latest dispatch from the stars:
 Aries: This is a week for doing what you can to let go of the the things in your life that are too bitter, too dark, too full of strange heavy sorrows. Get rid of them or throw them into the ocean or just put them away for later, for another time, for when you’re ready. This is a week for clearing space inside your head, for opening your curtains, for letting as much quiet winter light into your house as you can. This is a week for preparing yourself for wilder, brighter days. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Taurus: This week’s going to be about getting a little tough, a little loud, a little selfish. Not in a cruel way, not in a hard way, just enough to make you brave, enough to help you name the world that you want, enough to fight for your own life. Spend your days reading, or talking to people you trust, or cutting your own hair, or walking out in the snow, watching the light, dreaming about magic. Listen to your guts this week, listen to the sky, listen to songs that make you dance. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Gemini: This week, even when it’s grey out, even when the world feels messy, even when there’s not enough light in the afternoon, try to spend time with other people, try to be honest, try to be so open with the people you love. Try, as much as you can, not to hide your wild dark feelings, not to hide the small ugly thoughts that keep you awake at night. This week, honesty can keep you warm, it can help you find your way, it can make the ground solid underneath your feet. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Cancer: This is a week for untangling the messiest pieces of your life, for untangling your wild visions, for organizing your thoughts, your closet, your spice rack. It’s a week for figuring out the things that keep bothering you and for unraveling the weird threads of your dreams. Remember what your bones are made of, remember what lives in your heart, remember where you come from. Listen to other people. Sit still sometimes. Let your blurry daydreams come into focus, let them speak to you, let them show you a path. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Leo: This week, let yourself get a little starry-eyed, let yourself get dreamy, let yourself go a little wild imagining different futures, different ways to live, different worlds. This week, you can be strong and you can get things done, and still you can spend whole days dreaming about things that don’t even exist yet. Spend some time alone this week, let your head get clear, and let your weird desires lead you, let them guide you, let them drive you toward all of the bright things you want the most. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Virgo: This week, even on the quiet days, even when the air outside feels hushed, your body’s going to sense some kind of charge in the air, like something big is coming, like there’s a fire in your heart, like there’s electricity flowing through your veins. You’re going to sparkle, this week, you’re going to glow, you’re going to feel so strong. If you try, if you pay attention to all this power in the air and in your body, you’ll be able to get so much done. You can do so much work this week, you can do so much magic. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Libra: This week, the world is going to be so rich, so wild, so full, that it’s maybe going to feel a little tangled all around you; it’s maybe going to feel a little bit messy, a little weird. It’s okay. It’s a week for figuring things out, for living in the messiness, in the uncertainty, in your own soft body. If you let them, like this can work magic. They can change the way you see, they can change the way you move, they it can light up your entire world. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Scorpio: This is a week to be a little quiet, if you need to be. It’s a week to take it easy. It’s a week for caring for yourself, caring for your body and your home and your life. Be as gentle as you can with the people you know and let them be gentle back at you. Go outside and let the stars talk to you, let the trees call to you, let the cold air say your name. Bake bread, or bake cookies, or make pots of soup; do what you can to keep your house warm. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Sagittarius: This week is for living out in the world, for living in places other than the inside of your own brain, for leaving the house, for talking and thinking and dreaming out loud. Spend time with other people as much as you can this week, with your parents, with your friends, with your neighbors, with people you hardly even know. It’s a week for stirring things up, for listening, for talking, for stoking the fire inside you enough to keep you warm, enough to make you happy, enough to make you loud. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Capricorn: This week, let your ambitions go a little wild. Let them grow unwieldy, too big for your body, too big for you to even look at, up close. This week, do whatever you have to in order to believe in a bright future for yourself, to believe in success, to believe in wilder joys than you’ve ever imagined. Look forward, with bright eyes and a beating heart. Get dreamy but keep your feet on the ground, keep moving, keep living in the world while you make your great plans. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Aquarius: This is a week for seeking out whatever kinds of wisdom you can find, in stories, in songs, in the sky, in the sea. It’s a week for reading and for listening to people older than you and people younger than you. This week, trust the wisdom in your body, the wisdom of your hair and your heart and your bones. Focus on finding whatever you need to get you moving, whatever you need to make you brave, whatever you need to guide you. Let it help navigate your weird days and your weird dreams. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
 Pisces: This week, you’re going to feel, so intensely, that you’re right on the verge of something great, right on the edge of bright new joys. Try not to rush it, try not to hurry through these days, try to live inside whatever glowing anticipation you can find. Watch the sky, watch your favorite movies, say hello to the people on your street. Live in the best way you know how, this week, and keep your eyes open. Try to enjoy the quiet moments while you wait for your whole world to burst into color. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.
Today’s image was made specially for Madame Clairevoyant by Jen May.

Yes, very real, not kidding!

It’s in the stars!

doskapozora:

therumpus:

The Rumblr’s in-house astrologer, Madame Clairevoyant, presents her latest dispatch from the stars:

Aries: This is a week for doing what you can to let go of the the things in your life that are too bitter, too dark, too full of strange heavy sorrows. Get rid of them or throw them into the ocean or just put them away for later, for another time, for when you’re ready. This is a week for clearing space inside your head, for opening your curtains, for letting as much quiet winter light into your house as you can. This is a week for preparing yourself for wilder, brighter days. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Taurus: This week’s going to be about getting a little tough, a little loud, a little selfish. Not in a cruel way, not in a hard way, just enough to make you brave, enough to help you name the world that you want, enough to fight for your own life. Spend your days reading, or talking to people you trust, or cutting your own hair, or walking out in the snow, watching the light, dreaming about magic. Listen to your guts this week, listen to the sky, listen to songs that make you dance. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Gemini: This week, even when it’s grey out, even when the world feels messy, even when there’s not enough light in the afternoon, try to spend time with other people, try to be honest, try to be so open with the people you love. Try, as much as you can, not to hide your wild dark feelings, not to hide the small ugly thoughts that keep you awake at night. This week, honesty can keep you warm, it can help you find your way, it can make the ground solid underneath your feet. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Cancer: This is a week for untangling the messiest pieces of your life, for untangling your wild visions, for organizing your thoughts, your closet, your spice rack. It’s a week for figuring out the things that keep bothering you and for unraveling the weird threads of your dreams. Remember what your bones are made of, remember what lives in your heart, remember where you come from. Listen to other people. Sit still sometimes. Let your blurry daydreams come into focus, let them speak to you, let them show you a path. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Leo: This week, let yourself get a little starry-eyed, let yourself get dreamy, let yourself go a little wild imagining different futures, different ways to live, different worlds. This week, you can be strong and you can get things done, and still you can spend whole days dreaming about things that don’t even exist yet. Spend some time alone this week, let your head get clear, and let your weird desires lead you, let them guide you, let them drive you toward all of the bright things you want the most. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Virgo: This week, even on the quiet days, even when the air outside feels hushed, your body’s going to sense some kind of charge in the air, like something big is coming, like there’s a fire in your heart, like there’s electricity flowing through your veins. You’re going to sparkle, this week, you’re going to glow, you’re going to feel so strong. If you try, if you pay attention to all this power in the air and in your body, you’ll be able to get so much done. You can do so much work this week, you can do so much magic. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Libra: This week, the world is going to be so rich, so wild, so full, that it’s maybe going to feel a little tangled all around you; it’s maybe going to feel a little bit messy, a little weird. It’s okay. It’s a week for figuring things out, for living in the messiness, in the uncertainty, in your own soft body. If you let them, like this can work magic. They can change the way you see, they can change the way you move, they it can light up your entire world. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Scorpio: This is a week to be a little quiet, if you need to be. It’s a week to take it easy. It’s a week for caring for yourself, caring for your body and your home and your life. Be as gentle as you can with the people you know and let them be gentle back at you. Go outside and let the stars talk to you, let the trees call to you, let the cold air say your name. Bake bread, or bake cookies, or make pots of soup; do what you can to keep your house warm. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Sagittarius: This week is for living out in the world, for living in places other than the inside of your own brain, for leaving the house, for talking and thinking and dreaming out loud. Spend time with other people as much as you can this week, with your parents, with your friends, with your neighbors, with people you hardly even know. It’s a week for stirring things up, for listening, for talking, for stoking the fire inside you enough to keep you warm, enough to make you happy, enough to make you loud. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Capricorn: This week, let your ambitions go a little wild. Let them grow unwieldy, too big for your body, too big for you to even look at, up close. This week, do whatever you have to in order to believe in a bright future for yourself, to believe in success, to believe in wilder joys than you’ve ever imagined. Look forward, with bright eyes and a beating heart. Get dreamy but keep your feet on the ground, keep moving, keep living in the world while you make your great plans. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Aquarius: This is a week for seeking out whatever kinds of wisdom you can find, in stories, in songs, in the sky, in the sea. It’s a week for reading and for listening to people older than you and people younger than you. This week, trust the wisdom in your body, the wisdom of your hair and your heart and your bones. Focus on finding whatever you need to get you moving, whatever you need to make you brave, whatever you need to guide you. Let it help navigate your weird days and your weird dreams. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Pisces: This week, you’re going to feel, so intensely, that you’re right on the verge of something great, right on the edge of bright new joys. Try not to rush it, try not to hurry through these days, try to live inside whatever glowing anticipation you can find. Watch the sky, watch your favorite movies, say hello to the people on your street. Live in the best way you know how, this week, and keep your eyes open. Try to enjoy the quiet moments while you wait for your whole world to burst into color. Listen to Beyoncé, obviously.

Today’s image was made specially for Madame Clairevoyant by Jen May.

Yes, very real, not kidding!

It’s in the stars!

UPDATE: Gwen is perfect.

2013 has been a really rough year but like, Beyoncé made it worth sticking it out to the end

and like, it’s not just Beyoncé, it’s also everyone everywhere tweeting tumbling blogging whatever Beyoncé. 80,000 albums sold in the first 3 hours, what is this world even

jerksquad:

annaverity:

***Flawless (feat. Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie) — Beyoncé

Honestly started crying in my office a little bit during the Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie part.  

(Source: hormoaning, via ghoulchantsister)

tranqualizer:

[photo description: banner from the organization queers from economic justice. queer people of color are participating in a demonstration. one sign in the background reads, “fair housing now.”]
Queers for Economic Justice is Closing - The Work Continues
make a donation and help the organization close responsibly.
an except from the letter written by executive director Amber Hollibaugh

It is with profound sadness that I write to tell you QEJ is closing.
Funding has always been a challenge for QEJ throughout our 12 years of existence, but this year the financial crisis has been relentless.  We finally had to face the painful reality that we cannot keep going. The crisis cannot be resolved simply by a one-time burst of money. Had that been true, we would have turned to you, our community, and asked for help. I am sure of your response.
What the Board and I had to confront was that this financial crisis would remain an ongoing emergency because we had no certain guarantees of future long-term funding. We were looking down the barrel of the funding-world shotgun, and understood that we could not stay alive. We know that QEJ is not unique in this crisis. We see clearly how our radical vision of social change — including issues of poverty, incarceration, sexuality and racism too often did not align with more mainstream foundation priorities. And we know that this gap between our vision and the funding that enables it is a critical issue for our communities in the future.
We have never had a large number of major donors able to write big checks (though we thank the ones who have). What we have always had was a loyal and committed group of donors who believe in what QEJ does, and who gave—not huge sums—but all they could. Yet that wasn’t enough to keep us afloat. We needed to find another way to stay alive and, though we had a strategy, we did not have the time to implement it. Realizing this, we looked at each other and said what we had never said before: We have to close.
This has broken our hearts.
…
Our vision has not faltered; our funding has. But QEJ‘s fierce commitment to economic justice remains. We have had an amazing 12 years of radical, compelling work, driven by the vision of QEJ’s founders and supported by the passion and belief of stakeholders, volunteers, interns, donors and board members. We don’t intend for that to end. We will discard the 501(c)(3) shell of the current QEJ, but we will not put an end to our own history, our unique vision, or our commitment to radical, transformative change.

Queers for Economic Justice is Closing - The Work Continues
make a donation and help the organization close responsibly.

tranqualizer:

[photo description: banner from the organization queers from economic justice. queer people of color are participating in a demonstration. one sign in the background reads, “fair housing now.”]

Queers for Economic Justice is Closing - The Work Continues

make a donation and help the organization close responsibly.

an except from the letter written by executive director Amber Hollibaugh

It is with profound sadness that I write to tell you QEJ is closing.

Funding has always been a challenge for QEJ throughout our 12 years of existence, but this year the financial crisis has been relentless.  We finally had to face the painful reality that we cannot keep going. The crisis cannot be resolved simply by a one-time burst of money. Had that been true, we would have turned to you, our community, and asked for help. I am sure of your response.

What the Board and I had to confront was that this financial crisis would remain an ongoing emergency because we had no certain guarantees of future long-term funding. We were looking down the barrel of the funding-world shotgun, and understood that we could not stay alive. We know that QEJ is not unique in this crisis. We see clearly how our radical vision of social change — including issues of poverty, incarceration, sexuality and racism too often did not align with more mainstream foundation priorities. And we know that this gap between our vision and the funding that enables it is a critical issue for our communities in the future.

We have never had a large number of major donors able to write big checks (though we thank the ones who have). What we have always had was a loyal and committed group of donors who believe in what QEJ does, and who gave—not huge sums—but all they could. Yet that wasn’t enough to keep us afloat. We needed to find another way to stay alive and, though we had a strategy, we did not have the time to implement it. Realizing this, we looked at each other and said what we had never said before: We have to close.

This has broken our hearts.

Our vision has not faltered; our funding has. But QEJ‘s fierce commitment to economic justice remains. We have had an amazing 12 years of radical, compelling work, driven by the vision of QEJ’s founders and supported by the passion and belief of stakeholders, volunteers, interns, donors and board members. We don’t intend for that to end. We will discard the 501(c)(3) shell of the current QEJ, but we will not put an end to our own history, our unique vision, or our commitment to radical, transformative change.

Queers for Economic Justice is Closing - The Work Continues

make a donation and help the organization close responsibly.

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this always happens: like i’ll be thinking about someone and it’s usually a person i haven’t talked to in a while and i’ll think, i really should write them. and then later that day or the next they’ll email me and it always makes me feel weird. uncanny coincidences? i don’t know, is that intuition? being hooked into a collective unconscious? am i too woo-woo?

i feel a little better about things right now but still i mostly feel like i’m living in numbed out bed space, occasionally tapping into something like insight when i have enough energy to devote myself to reading or doing a tarot spread. i think a lot about writing a long poem called “whatever happened to crazy jane” or maybe it’d be a zine, i don’t know. i kind of just want to throw all the scraps of my failed and abandoned projects together and hope that something will work its way out.

I’M UNSTABLE AND UNPOETIC. UNFOLLOW ME.

I need to be in the Midwest right now but I don’t have the money to move back and I don’t know how to bring my cat with me cuz I found her in the street a year ago and never took her to the vet so legally she doesn’t belong to me and I am too anxious to take her now because what if the vet takes her away from me, like literally the cat has been a lifesaver cuz she hops up on my lap every time I cry or have a panic attack, but anyway, how do I get back to the US with no money and this cat situation, I can’t take it here anymore I am going fucking nuts. It was nice while Debbie was here cuz we have so much in common and I felt like our conversations about tarot and astrology and poems allowed me to escape the mess I’m in but she left and now I’ve been working, trying to make money here and there but it’s not enough and now I’m looking for a place to live cuz this sublet only lasts until December 28 and I am going fucking nuts, like, I am really on the verge with no community because everything imploded and there are abusive and manipulative people all around and I sound totally paranoid and nuts right now, don’t I, like I’m alive mostly because of my cat, ahhh


Frida Kahlo - From her sketchbook, 1936

debbie, joohyun and i saw this person last week at the musée de l’orangerie, which i should maybe write down some of the stuff we talked about? because it was amazing to see her work in person (none of us ever had before) but the way the exhibit framed her was so, so, so fucked (sexist/colonialist/etc: as in Diego was the Real Artist with a Vision of History and a Dedication to the Cause/Frida was an enigmatic woman who could really only paint her own suffering).  BUT, standing in front of this,
oh my god.

Frida Kahlo - From her sketchbook, 1936

debbie, joohyun and i saw this person last week at the musée de l’orangerie, which i should maybe write down some of the stuff we talked about? because it was amazing to see her work in person (none of us ever had before) but the way the exhibit framed her was so, so, so fucked (sexist/colonialist/etc: as in Diego was the Real Artist with a Vision of History and a Dedication to the Cause/Frida was an enigmatic woman who could really only paint her own suffering). 

BUT,
standing in front of this,

oh my god.

(Source: regardintemporel, via bellemaddox)